Conflicts within thyself..
Basically it's been a struggle between the 2 personalities psychologically and partly physically. I can feel his grasp and allure strengthening over me and i'm fighting for my true self to stay inside and prevent it from being overwritten cos' i promised her and that's who she fell in love with. But it's getting tiring and I'm trying my best not to relent. I see some parallels to the Spider-man 3 movie and my life as you can deduce from the picture.Anywayz, the SGcafe outig went pretty well. The carrot cake was tasty and made some new friends and maybe potential actresses for the Emo rangers vid. I also collected my phone back which they reported that nothing was wrong with it but they erased my cosplay photos T-T*sigh* However, during lunch, i found out that they actually noticed me at EOY and recognised me. LOL
So we headed to Sentosa beach( will put up pics later) and just waddled around..and the convos kept being about yuri and yaoi.^-^;; I was like ... basically. Then we were at the arcade where i awed them with my air hockey skills. Tiring game that was. Aoi asked me if i practised regularly but in actual fact I last played it a year ago. Guess playing a lot when i was a lil' kid helped.
The next day, my family went to JB. Went to the mall and bought a deathnote DVD and we returned back the day after..also watched Star Wars Episode 2 last night.
Basically, It all comes down to the fact that i need to feel needed, to be loved. I must sustain. I must preserve and fight on. And i'm leaving SP next week it seems.
Merry X'mas minna btw..
posted by Dark Phoenix @ 02:16
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